These are the last pictures I took with Granny, just a couple weeks before she passed away.
It has been one year since my Granny left this Earth to return back to our Heavenly Father, family and friends. It has been a tough year without her for me. As most of you know, she meant the world to me. She was not just my Great Grandmother, she was one of my very best friends. I could go to her and tell her anything. It never mattered, she was always there to give me her advice, love, sarcasm, a kick in the butt, whatever it was that I needed, she was there. She truly was one of the spunkiest ladies any of you could have ever met. Even on her death bed she could make me laugh harder than anyone I know! I adored her and she adored me. She never missed any of my singing performances. Right before she passed away I was able to visit with her and she asked me to sing for her, so I climbed up in her bed with her and held her hand and sang her favorite song "Crazy by Patsy Cline" and she sang with me, oh what a beautiful memory I will NEVER forget. Yesterday, my sister and I sang for the Senior Citizens of Morgan (which we do almost every year). And it hit me like a ton of bricks. She was not there. So many of her friends were there and let us know how much they missed her. Needless to say, it was just a big crying fest afterwards. I thank God for every day I got to spend with that AMAZING woman! One of the greatest days of my life was to be able to name my daughter Mazryn "Ansta" Jones after her Great-Great Grandmother. They were two peas in a pod. Mazzy talks about her often with me and I hope that she will be able to retain some of the special memories she has with her Granny. This has been an especially hard season for me. Every Christmas Eve, since I was born, we have ALWAYS spent it at Granny's. It was just the way it was and I wouldn't and couldn't have gone anywhere else. Last year we buried our sweet Granny on my sister's birthday which is Dec. 22. It was officially my first Christmas without my Granny in 28 years of my life. I think I was very numb to it last year. It is really pulling at my heart this year though. I miss her so so much that there are times I can hardly bear it. Although I would never wish her back. Her life here was complete and full. This is just selfish things for me I guess. I just have needed to vent and let this out. I just miss her and wanted everyone to know what a wonderful and special person she is and was. As my mom took Mazzy and Bronson for a ride around Morgan a few weeks ago. They drove up around where Granny lived. (Now I have to tell you Bronson's favorite thing about Granny's was she always had M&M's for the kids, and she would get him a little cup and fill it up for him and they would sit and visit.) Well Bronson proceeded to tell my mom that he was hungry and wanted to go to Granny's for some M&M's and just couldn't understand why she wouldn't take him. Mazzy kept telling him that they couldn't because she was dead. Well needless to say it took everything my mom had to keep it together and when she told me I completely lost it! But how fortunate for my kids to have known their Great-Great Grandmother. I was so happy to know that Bronson remembered a part of her, it really touched me. Anyway, I feel so blessed and lucky to have had such a wonderful, strong, loving, caring, giving woman in my life. She has influenced my life for the better and I am so glad in my heart for the memories I have with my Granny Goose!
